Monday, December 6, 2010

are you?

early on when ben and i first joined our a small group at the church the pastor asked us about getting involved. the conversation is fairly irrelevant, except that at one point he said (and i quote)

"if we are not feeding the hungry and clothing the naked and taking care of widows and orphans, we SUCK!"

it is so refreshing to hear pastors use words like suck. its like speaking the vernacular. but that's not my point. his vision for the church is so basic, almost primal, and yet it feels like exactly what god is asking of us. big beautiful buildings with stained glass crosses and high tech children's ministries, in my opinion, only scare people away. but love. love invites. love speaks. love listens. love heals. "love covers a multitude of sins." (and isn't it sin that we are trying to hide inside those big beautiful buildings with the stained glass crosses??)

then i got to thinking. am i feeding the hungry? or clothing the naked? or helping widows and orphans? doubt it.

are you?

Friday, October 22, 2010

Are we there yet?

in my very christian world perhaps one of the things i hear most is "praying for god's will for my life." small groups discuss it, pastors preach about it, and devotion writers try so often to describe it. all the talk reminds me of annoying children in the back seat of a car asking their parent's "are we there yet? are we there yet?"

you'll know when you are there.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

"it's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes"

last night i was brought to my knees, if you will, by the magnitude of god's provision. i'm not talking things or money, but answers to prayers, silenced insecurities, a pervasive yes when everything is screaming no.
i am sure this journey began long before i am choosing to pinpoint, but for simplicity's sake i am choosing a moment. at some point in college i realized or was told or out of desperation started praying about my fears and insecurities, mostly regarding the future. i saw god's heart for even my smallest doubts and began to continually offer those up to him. as time went on i clearly saw his answers. how could i doubt a god who constantly delivers?
then we moved to alabama. prior to this move my most consistent prayer was for a good church community. we were met with not only a good church but a church that went light years past my expectations. a church that asked the same questions i asked, that didn't offer tradition as the answer, that lived and worked and fought unapologetically for christ to be known. once again, god had answered an emphatic yes to my prayers.
and then i was overcome by that no. the one that reminded me alabama is only temporary. this cant always be my church. god can't always answer yes.
and without my prompting god whispered in my ear that yes, he can always answer yes. no i cant stay here forever, and no this will not be the church i raise my kids in, but yes there is something more. something better. when i thought of losing this church it felt like something was saying no, god cant [dot dot dot]. but then god said yes. he can. always. he led us to this church, did he not? why cant he lead us to a new one? to something even better.

note: i am not implying god always answers yes to our requests. in fact, i think he often says no to those in order to say yes to our hearts desires. even when (especially when) we don't know what those are.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Monday, January 11, 2010

"oh the wait was so worth it"

"Wimber described the worship event as a relational process with several stages, each of which draws the believer closer to the Father's heart. Consider the analogy of a husband and wife preparing for intimacy. They do not immediately rush into the bedroom; they take time to draw close to one another. One meaning of the Greek word for worship, poskuneo, is 'to turn toward to kiss.' Psalm 2:12 calls us to 'kiss the Son, lest he be angry.' A flowing pattern of worship, with smooth transitions between a number of songs uninterrupted by announcements and solos, prepares us to 'kiss,' to express our most tender affection to, our Lord." -Doug Banister